Heyo everyone!
Whomp, look who's late again. Me. It's me. I'm late at posting once again, and I am so sorry! To be honest, I haven't had any spectacular blogging ideas as of late, but I am going to change that. I will be blogging regularly from now on! By the by, if you all have any suggestions or ideas for posts and such that would be fantabulous. :D ((Also, what do you think of the new blog design??? Pretty snazzy? Pretty lame? Tell me, tell me!))
If you've read the title of this post, you're probably wondering what the heck I'm going to be blogging about today. Well folks. Today you are going to get a little peek into my mind. Or, my thought process and how I think about weird things. I've been kind of toying with the idea of setting aside another day of the week for these kind of (hopefully) shorter posts exploring the dark regions of my psyche, so this is like an experimental test.
This will either be really exciting or super-dooper lame. But there's no way to know unless you try, am I right?
So, I kind of get these extremely strange thoughts all the time for no reason. Like, I'll be brushing my teeth and suddenly I'm thinking about how short life is and I'm squandering it on this mundane routine. I mean seriously, this happens all of the time at the strangest moments. The following is one of those thoughts.
I am 99% sure that most of the people that read my blog are young, as in teens or maybe early twenties. I'm only 16 myself, so that doesn't really come as a surprise. So yeah, a bunch of young people on here, right?
Okay, good.
I've recently been pondering the concept of school and high-school in particular. I used to be of the very strong opinion that pretty much everything you learn in high-school is a giant waste of time. I mean seriously, are you going to use any of this stuff ever??? But then I had a thought that thoroughly countered this very strong opinion of mine. The purpose of high-school is to give kids a taste of everything they can do, let them try a few things out so they can find something they enjoy and go do something with it. Which makes sense in the long run, unless you already know what you'd like to do as you get older. Which makes a little less sense, but that's another blog post for another day.
This thought then led to another one in turn. High-school and school in general are such a small part of life. I mean the average human has a lifespan of 70-80 years, give or take some time depending on health issues and all of that fun stuff. School takes about 13 years from start to finish, including high school which takes 4. In the grand scheme of things, this is a very small part of your life. I mean, 13 out of 80 isn't that long, is it? No it's not.
Consequently, this time of school also takes up a good part of your childhood. You start school at about 5 years old, and you do it until you're about 18. Boom, childhood gone.
People put so much emphasis and stress on this time of your life, especially in high school. You've gotta learn all of these things so you can then learn these things and then go and do these things. Everyone always tells you how important school and high-school are, how important your childhood is and how you don't want to squander this time, yadda yadda ya. Do you guys get my point?
No? Well here. The point is that you still have about, eh, I don't know 60+ years of life left when it's all said and done. And we spend all of our teen and maybe even our childhood years, all 18 of them, stressing about what we're going to do with this huge amount of time while we only have this short time to have some carefree time but we only spend all of this time worrying about what we're going to do with our time and this doesn't make any sense, but good because that's the point.
I mean, isn't our childhood supposed to be, like, fun? Aren't we supposed to enjoy this carefree part of our life for the short time it lasts?? But instead we worry about how we're going to figure out the rest of our 60+ years???? It don't make no sense!
Listen, I ain't sayin' you should be one of those YOLO idiots who squanders their teen years on partying and drinking and drugs and ends up ruining what's left of their lives. Be wise, prepare a little, but man! You don't have to get a job when you're 14, you don't have to go to college the moment you finish high-school, you don't have to know exactly what you're going to do with your life the moment you turn 18. I mean, you want to think about it, you want to start planning, but you don't have to have a detailed outline of every step you take from now until you retire. There's nothing wrong with being a fry cook for a little while until while you figure things out and save up a little money. Relax! Because the truth is you do only live once, and a couple years from now you're going to wish you hadn't spent all of your childhood stressing.
Dang it all, God has a plan and it's hard because you wanna see it, but I promise you that He does have one and that He doesn't want you having anxiety and depression and all of that rotten stuff because you're feeling all of this pressure to plan your entire life out before you even graduate high-school!!!!
So you know what. Imma tell you what you need to do. You need to exit out of this dumb post, find some old Looney Tunes to watch, grab a Capri-Sun and some mac and cheese, wrap yourself up in a blanket with your favorite stuffed animals and laugh your self silly at the hilarious stunts Bugs Bunny gets into while trying to not spew food and/or drink all over your computer screen. 'Cause this time of your life was made for enjoying so that's what you'd better do with it before it's all gone.
MR
Tuesday, February 9, 2016
Wednesday, January 20, 2016
"Deep Stuff"- A Gravity Falls Fanfiction
Heyo readers!
I'm back! A little late, but hey. I was trying to finish my fanfiction, and guess what? I DID!!! It's like a miracle, I actually got something down when I said I would have it done! :D
But before you read this fanfiction, I must say some things.
First off, obvious spoilers for Gravity Falls. If you haven't seen the show, don't read this fanfic, because if you haven't seen it you need to go watch it right now. And I mean now. So go. Don't even finish reading this post or this description or anything. Go watch the show.
BUT
If you have seen the show, but you haven't gotten to S2E4 "Sock Opera", you shouldn't read this fic. Because, spoilers. Seriously. Go catch up and then come back and read.
And that concludes the disclaimers or warnings or whatever. Except, did I mention that I've only read this through once, so it's probably really bad and I'm probably going to regret posting it by tomorrow, but oh well I just wanted to get it up.
So don't hate me for this fic.
Alright! Enough chit-chat. Let's get this thing started.
“Deep Stuff”
Gravity
Falls fanfiction (Post Sock Opera)
-Dipper and Mabel have a late night discussion about a certain psycho triangle and the affect he had on a certain twelve-year old Mystery Twin-
Mabel's eyes flew open,
something jolting her unexpectedly from her sleep. She blinked, brow
furrowing as she wondered what could have woken her. She felt wary,
strange, like something wasn't right. Could she have been having a
nightmare?
Nah, that wasn't
likely. Mabel never had nightmares, and on the rare occasion she did,
they were never bad enough to give her the unsettled feeling she had
now.
Maybe it was a weird
noise? Yeah, that made more sense. It was probably just Grunkle Stan
rummaging around for some food or doing some weird old man stuff. She
knew it wasn't Dipper because the lights were out and she could hear
the rhythmic sounds of his snoring coming from the other side of the
room.
Except, the snores
weren't coming from the other side of the room.
She glanced down at the
curled up form of Waddles nestled at her feet. Rumbling pig-snores
echoed from his adorable little mouth, his precious little hooves
brought up by his head and a look of utter contentment on his face.
A
little squeal erupted out of Mabel at his piggy-cuteness before she
clapped a hand over her mouth to stop it.
Of
course the snores weren't coming from Dipper. He never snored, but
Waddles always did. But she didn't have any time to think about that,
because what she was looking at right now was prime scrapbook
material. She groped for the camera she kept on her bedside table,
but her hand found nothing but empty-space. Dang it, where was her
camera???
Any moment now, Waddles
would shift to a different position and this cuteness would be lost
for all eternity, never to return again. There was no time to lose!
She swiveled toward
Dipper's side of the room, mouth open and ready to plead with him to
help her find her camera before it was forever too late.
That was when she
remembered it was the middle of the night. Also that she was awake
because of what she assumed was a strange noise. And even more
important that all this, she realized that her twin brother was not
in his bed where he should be.
She paused, staring at
the messed up bedclothes and empty bed for a moment. Before she
rolled her eyes and continued to search for her camera.
He
had probably just gone to the bathroom and run into something along
the way. She grinned, imagining the half-asleep form of her brother
stumbling to the bathroom and running into a table or something
equally clumsy and completely him.
But that was when she
saw that Dipper's hat and vest were missing from their usual place at
the foot of his bed. With a startling flash of clarity, she
remembered everything that had happened yesterday with her brother
and her completely failed sock-opera and Gabe and Bill and Bipper.
She also remembered
that Dipper never got up in the middle of the night unless he was
sick or he'd had a nightmare. And with everything that had happened
yesterday, neither of those options were out of the question.
She leaped out of the
covers and onto her feet in one smooth movement. Her eyes locked on
Dipper's table and she noted with relief that the journal was still
there. The last thing she wanted her brother doing was more research
or whatever nerdy stuff he did when what he really should be doing
was getting some rest, sickness or nightmares or not.
But even though the
journal was where it should be, her brother was not. And he was hurt
and tired and what if Bill had come back...
She shook her head
furiously to get rid of these ridiculous thoughts.
“Come on, Mabes,”
she muttered to herself. “Worrying is for Dipper. Stepping forward
with a smile on your face and getting the job done is your area of
expertise!”
Taking a deep breath,
she stepped off of the bed, casting one more glance at Waddles before
she left the room. The moment of cuteness would just have to be lost.
Her sock clad feet
padded swiftly along the wooden floor of the house as she searched
for her brother. Her first stop was the bathroom, but he wasn't
there. Next she tried the kitchen, but that was empty as well. She
checked the living room, the hallways, the gift shop, she even
managed a peek into Grunkle Stan's room, but he wasn't there, he
wasn't anywhere.
A
sigh escaped her mouth as she tried to fight down her rising worry.
She had come back up to the attic and planted herself on the window
seat, her chin cupped in her hands, lips pursued in concentration.
She shouldn't be
worried. She was the great Mabel Pines, capable of conquering any
fear with a never-ending supply of cheer, glitter, and yarn! If she
could do that, then she could find her missing twin.
But she'd looked
everywhere! Where
could he possibly be?
Ding.
A light clicked on in Mabel's mind. She grinned and
ran down the stairs as fast as she dared while still being quiet.
There was one place she hadn't looked yet, and she had a pretty good
feeling that was where he was.
Carefully, quietly she sneaked up the ladder that led
to the roof. One she'd reached the top, she climbed to the top and
raised her head just enough to peek over the rim. A relieved grin
tugged at her mouth when she saw the hunched-over form of her brother
in the moonlight, sitting motionlessly on the platform.
The platform floor creaked loudly as she walked over
to him. She settled down on his right wordlessly as she thought of
the right amount of cheer to slather on without overwhelming him.
Judging from the fact that his face was completely hidden under his
hat and he hadn't so much as glanced in her direction, he had
probably had a nightmare. And when it was this bad, she had to be
very careful with what she said so she didn't send him “over the
edge”, as Mom and Dad had said last time this had happened. Of
course, the last time this had occurred was back when they were both
nine and they had watched Toy Story 3 and Dipper had gotten scared
that Lots-O'Huggin' Bear was going to eat him and his toys. After the
events of today, Mabel was pretty sure that this was a little worse.
She gulped, staring at Dipper's unmoved form. Yep,
this was definitely going to take some thought.
His knees were brought up to his chest, arms wrapped
firmly around them, head somewhere between his legs and his body. She
could just see the white bandages wrapped around his left arm and the
bruises that ran down all the way to his wrist. In her mind she could
see the other bruises and cuts on his back and legs, and the giant
goose egg on the back of his head.
Anger rushed through her as she stared at her
brother. This was all Bill's fault. That low-down, good for nothing,
triangular poop-face! Mabel didn't often have the desire to punch
things, but when she thought about that stupid triangle she did.
She'd hit him right in his fat eye if she could.
Dipper shifted slightly, wrapping his arms a little
tighter around his legs. He sniffed quietly, but it was loud enough
that Mabel didn't miss it.
Was he crying?? She couldn't remember that last time
he had cried. This was bad, this was super-duper not good. She was
definitely going to need to ration her cheer carefully.
He still hadn't even glanced at her yet, had hardly
even moved. If it wasn't for the almost imperceptible rise and fall
of his shoulders she wouldn't have even known if he was breathing.
As the two of them sat in silence, the only sounds
coming from the forest around them, part of Dipper wanted Mabel to
just leave him alone. It was just a dumb nightmare! He didn't want
her to see him upset like this, especially over something so stupid.
He was fine, he didn't need anyone to tell everything was okay or any
of that. He just wanted to be alone for awhile.
Or at least, that was what he told himself. He
sniffed again, burying his face a little deeper into his legs and
hoping Mabel hadn't noticed and that she would just go away, or maybe
not, maybe it would be better if she stayed...
Mabel certainly did hear this second sniffle, and she
came to the conclusion that it was time to stop thinking. She lived
by the standard that jumping into things without much thought was
almost always a great idea, and this time wasn't any different.
“Whatcha doin' out here, bro-bro?”
Her voice was gentle, hardly loud enough to break the
silence. Dipper jumped as if she'd shouted it.
He gulped noisily and cleared his throat.
“Oh, you know. Just thinking.” His voice cracked
and shook when he spoke.
“'Bout what?” Mabel prodded, sliding a little
closer to her brother.
He shrugged. “Stuff.”
Not good, not good, not good. She hesitated for a
brief moment, wondering if she should say what she wanted to or if it
would be an over-the-edge-sender. Dipper sat there, half of him
wanting her to say it, and the other half hoping she wouldn't.
“You thinkin' about what happened today?”
There, she said it.
Silence for what felt like an eternity.
Then a shrug and a grunt from the Dipper-lump.
“Kind of.”
Mabel wanted to remind him of the talk they'd had
about giving better answers, but now wasn't the time.
“Kind of?”
Dipper sighed deep and long, loosening the tension in
his shoulders that Mabel hadn't noticed before.
“It's not a big deal, Mabel, really.”
His voice was muffled behind his knees, but Mabel
didn't need to hear it clearly to know that it was thick with tears
and that was most certainly a big deal, thank you very much, Dipper
Pines.
She carefully put a hand on his shoulder, painfully
aware of the bruises just under his clothes.
“Hey Dipper.”
She paused, waiting for some kind of response.
His head shifted toward her, just enough that she
could see that faint outline of his face in the moonlight.
Putting on her best, most encouraging, most Mabel-y
smile, she continued.
“You know, plain ol' siblings are pretty good at
sharing stuff with each other, but twins are even better at it. And
sometimes you might not want to talk about something, but you always
feel better after you do.”
She let her smile get a little wider, a little more
encouraging.
The lump-that-was-Dipper stayed perfectly still for a
moment. She heard him swallow, watched as the glint of his eyes
disappeared as he blinked.
Then, finally...
“I had a bad dream.”
He had a feeling that she probably had already
figured this out by now, but it was an easy way to ease into the
conversation that he knew was coming.
He spoke so quietly that Mabel could hardly hear him
through the muffling powers of his legs and the faint night-time
noises coming from below.
She nodded, far from surprised at this.
“Was it about that crazy triangle?” She prodded
when he didn't continue.
He visibly winced at the mention of that stupid thing
and nodded.
There was another moment of silence as Mabel tried to
think of how to get her brother to open up without making him freak
out. Dipper didn't think that was possible. Unless he decided to
speak first.
“He was in my body again.”
Dipper had turned his head completely away from her,
but his face wasn't buried quite as deeply into his knees.
“It was just the same stuff that happened today,
but this time everything didn't turn out alright.”
Mabel could see his face clearly now. Wide eyes
stared up at the night sky, the dark circles under them still as
prominent as the day before, cuts and bruises framing his pale face.
“Bill got the journal this time. He destroyed it,
right there in front of me and I couldn't to anything.”
He was getting more animated now, giving his arms a
helpless shake to emphasize his point. Mabel didn't miss the way he
winced when he jerked his injured arm a little too hard.
He stopped talking, arms wrapped back around his legs
again. There was something about the way his shoulders tensed up and
how his throat started working that told Mabel he wasn't finished
yet.
“But I didn't care about any of that.” He
whispered. “He could have burned the journal a hundred times and I
wouldn't have cared.”
Mabel squinted at him. Well, this was odd.
Dipper swallowed loudly and looked into her eyes for
the first time that night,
“He killed you, Mabel. I watched him as he took my
hands and he...”
His voice broke. Biting down on his lip in an attempt
to fight off the tears, he stared at his sister with watery,
fear-filled eyes.
“I killed you.”
The sentence ended in a sob that sent the first tear
rolling down his cheek. He took a shuddering breath and pushed
forward before Mabel could say anything, a note of hysteria creeping
into his voice.
“It's all my fault. I should have never made that
deal with Bill in the first place. I should have listened to the
journal, I should have never let him into my mind and now it's too
late.”
The hysteria was turning into full-blown panic now.
His gaze darted around wildly, looking anywhere but at his sister,
breaths coming in short gasps.
It's all my fault, it's all my fault, it's all my-
“Dipper, what the heck? Calm down, will ya?”
Mabel's startled and somehow commanding voice drew
Dipper back to reality. He started and glanced over at her, mouth
still gaping open in whatever he was about to say. He looked
confused, almost as if he'd forgotten he wasn't still stuck in the
dream and that Mabel wasn't dead and everything was okay.
Closing his mouth, he cleared his throat and blinked
uncomfortably against the sting in his eyes. Was that from tears or
from what had happened in the kitchen?
Mabel was starting to get worried and there was no
pushing it aside this time.
“It was just a dream, dummy, nothing to worry
about. We took care of that crazy triangle dude, the journal's safe
and I'm just alive and me as ever!”
She threw in an extra wide grin and lifted her
shoulders up.
“So there's no reason for you to...”
The look Dipper was giving her was enough to put her
cheerfulness on a temporary hold.
Past the tears swimming around their red-rims and
spilling over onto his cheeks, there was so much guilt in his eyes
that it made Mabel start to wonder if he really had killed
her.
“You don't understand,” he croaked. “I know it
was just a dream, but, but it wasn't! I actually let Bill into my
mind. He was literally inside of my body while I floated around and
watched him wreak havoc on it!”
Mabel could see memories of the things he'd told her
about flash across his face. The stairs, the kitchen, the forks, the
cuts and bruises...
“You could have really died, Mabel!”
His voice rose to a choked shout that silenced some
of the forest noises.
“We could have all died because I made a stupid
mistake. It would have been all my fault.”
The words ripped their way out his throat, tearing at
his guilt-ridden heart like knives. Mabel flinched at their force,
looking at her brother with a mixture of fear and concern on her
face.
Dipper's ragged breaths were the only noise that
filled the silence as the twins stared at each other.
Mabel hadn't seen her brother this freaked out in a
long time. No, no that was wrong. This was a while new level of
freaked out, something untouched and so intense that it was more than
she'd expect even from Dipper. She could see him shaking, his eyes
were wide and bloodshot and so haunted that he didn't even look like
her brother anymore. And he was crying. Dipper never cried, not that
she ever saw at least. He was always too worried about her to let her
see him like that.
But this completely broke that unspoken rule,
shattered it in a million-zillion pieces.
For once, Mabel was at a complete loss for words.
One look at her face was all it took for him to
realize that he'd just gone over the edge again. He abruptly stopped
panting, biting down on his lip with an embarrassed look creeping
onto his face. Mabel looked almost scared
at how distraught he was. That just made the guilt worse and before
he had even realized it he'd curled back up again, hiding his
tear-stained face behind his knees.
He missed the
steely resolve that filled his sister's eyes when he did.
She put her hand
back on his shoulder, ignoring the way he flinched away from her when
she did.
“Listen up,
Dippers.”
The calm strength
in her usually cheerful voice was enough to make him glance over at
her.
“I am going to be
completely, painfully honest with you, even though I don't want to
and I just want to say that everything's fine and what happened today
wasn't a big deal and now it's over and all of those wonderful, nice
things. But I'm not going to.”
Mabel paused. She
had her brother's full attention now.
“All that sad
junk you said earlier was kinda right. You were the one who let Bill
take control or whatever and you did pretty much annihilate my show.”
She wasn't missing
the hurt look in Dipper's eyes, but she pushed on, hoping he wouldn't
start hating her until she was finished.
“Though, the
whole thing with the rockets and the fire and all the things that
went BOOM
were my fault. But the point is, bro, that it doesn't really matter.”
Dipper raised an
eyebrow at this and opened his mouth to say something, but Mabel held
up a hand to stop him, teeth gritted in determination.
“Just hear me
out! What I'm trying to say is that we all make mistakes. Remember
that time I destroyed the magical mailbox in the forest by putting in
the video of me stuffing gummy worms up my nose? Or when I told
Gideon I'd go on a date with him?”
The twins shuddered
simultaneously, a look of disgust coming over both of their faces.
“Yeah, that
wasn't your best decision.” Dipper mumbled.
“So true! That
one almost got us killed to. And there are like, a ba-jillion more
mistakes I've made I could say. But even worse than any of those was
when I didn't help you out with that computer when I told you I
would.”
Mabel's tone was
completely serious now. It could have just been the moonlight playing
tricks on him, but Dipper could have sworn he saw regret in her eyes.
“So the whole
mess was kind of my fault to. But in the end, everything did turn out
mostly alright, even though we both messed up.”
Her gaze flickered
down to the bandages on her brother's arm and she gave a mental
emphasize on the word 'mostly'.
“You can't stay
stuck on your mistakes, bro-bro! You gotta just keep moving on or
life is gonna be a whole lot less awesome. You get what I'm trying to
say?”
Dipper blinked at
his sister as her eyes bored into him, waiting for a response.
“Wow, Mabel. That
was really... Deep.”
She grinned. “I
know, right?! I don't even know where that came from.”
There was a moment
of silence, both of the twins staring at each other. Before Dipper
could stop it, before he even realized it, a chuckle had escaped his
mouth.
Taking the chuckle
as a sign that her brother was back to normal, she let her grin grow
extra wide, all the concern and regret gone so fast Dipper wondered
if it had ever been there at all.
Letting her hand
fall off of his shoulder, Mabel turned her gaze to the stars above
them. Her face was happy, content, back to how it always was and how
it always should be.
“Hey, Mabel?”
She looked back at
her brother, her lips pursued questioningly.
Dipper scooted at
little closer, crossing his legs and planting his hands behind him
for support.
“Thanks. You
know, for all of that deep stuff.”
He shot her a smile
before letting his eyes wander up to the night sky.
“No problem,
bro-bro. Can you show me where the big dipper is again?”
“Yeah.” He
pointed up near the horizon. “It's right...”
“There!”
Mabel lunged over
and gave his forehead a gentle poke. She giggled and Dipper let out a
groan.
“Doesn't that
ever get old?” He asked, rubbing his forehead and glaring at her in
mock irritation.
“Nope!”
A ridiculously wide
grin adorned her face. Dipper tried to groan again, but it turned
into a laugh half-way through. Soon the sounds of the twins mirth
echoed around the forest by the Mystery Shack, silencing the usual
noises and replacing them with the sound of something much better.
End
Hope you all enjoyed this! As usual comments and critiques are always welcome. :D Have a great week everyone!!!!!
MR
P.S. Also, I believe this might be the longest fanfic I've written to date. So yeah. I'm actually leaving now. Goodbye.
Thursday, January 14, 2016
Art of 2015
BOOM!!!!
Hey, is this a bonus post??? Yes, it is. The only reason this is happening is because I am fiercely procrastinating all of my responsibilities out of existence, but hey! Reasons are reasons, who cares, let's get into this thing.
So, like, to start, I'm just going to say that this entire post is nothing but shameless self-promotion. That's it. Yeah.
Anywho, I thought it might be kind of fun to go through my art on Pinterest and see what the five most popular pieces were of 2015.
Kind of lame, but....
Whatever.
This is so spur-of-the-moment, guys, I'm sorry, I'm just gonna start and stop talking.
5. Loki
4. Hiccstrid /"Courage, Hiccup"
IT'S A TIE FOR FOR NUMBER FOUR!!!
3. Baby Tiger
2. Honey Lemon
Hey, is this a bonus post??? Yes, it is. The only reason this is happening is because I am fiercely procrastinating all of my responsibilities out of existence, but hey! Reasons are reasons, who cares, let's get into this thing.
So, like, to start, I'm just going to say that this entire post is nothing but shameless self-promotion. That's it. Yeah.
Anywho, I thought it might be kind of fun to go through my art on Pinterest and see what the five most popular pieces were of 2015.
Kind of lame, but....
Whatever.
This is so spur-of-the-moment, guys, I'm sorry, I'm just gonna start and stop talking.
5. Loki
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| 6 repins, 12 likes |
4. Hiccstrid /"Courage, Hiccup"
IT'S A TIE FOR FOR NUMBER FOUR!!!
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| 7 repins, 6 likes |
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| 7 repins, 6 likes ((This is my favorite out of the two. :P)) |
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| 13 pins, 5 likes |
1. "Babes in the Wood" OTGW fanart
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| 23 repins, 9 likes |
Okay, I've got to talk about this one for a minute. This is literally the most repinned picture of mine ever of all time. And I have. Absolutely. No. Idea. Why. I mean, look at it!!! It's not worth 23 repins!!!!!!! But somehow, that's how many it has. I just.... I don't understand. I truly don't....
And thus this totally random post comes to an end. Have a great week, everyone, and I'll see you on Monday! I'M STILL WORKING ON MY GRAVITY FALLS FANFICTION, BUT SO HELP ME I WILL HAVE IT DONE IN TIME IF IT KILLS ME!!!!! *Leaves to stop procrastinating and write on fic*
MR
Monday, January 11, 2016
Why I Like Sad Things
Hello, readers!
How has your week been? I hope it was great, but if not, I hope this next one is exponentially better! :D
In my life, I've begun to notice something about myself. It's something that I've kind of always known about, but I've also come to the realization that not everyone else is the same way. And I've also realized that it might come across as weird to those who aren't.How has your week been? I hope it was great, but if not, I hope this next one is exponentially better! :D
You see, I like sad things. And when I say I like sad thing, I mean I like them a lot.
Yeah, this may or may not sound weird depending on how you feel about it. But either way, allow me to clarify.
Even from a young age, I've always enjoyed the sadder side of stories. I've never been one for straight-up comedies, or mindless entertainment, or just simple plot-lines or any of that stuff. Though I do enjoy some good humor, hehheh. :P I've always liked dramas. The stories where something goes horribly wrong, the characters are hurt and thrown down, and it looks like there isn't any hope to be seen. I love the times when the characters are at their lowest and they just lose it. I love to scroll through the hurt/comfort fanfictions from my favorites stories. Generally speaking, my favorite parts in books and movies are the very saddest parts.
'Okay', you say as you exit as fast as you can out of this blog post, because wowzers this girl is creepy. I am totally sounding creepy right now, but I'm not finished. Just bear with me.
Yes, it is true that these are my favorite kind of stories. The ones where the tears are streaming down your face and your crying into your pillow and you just want to reach through the page or the screen and fix everything, 'cause if you have to watch one more thing go wrong in their precious fictional lives then you're going to scream. You know, those kind of stories.
There was a point in my life where I realized that I actually, in a somewhat sick and strange way, enjoyed this kind of pain. And I was a little scared of myself.
Why in heaven's name did I enjoy these kind of, well, these kind of feels? Was this normal? Should I see someone about this?? What if I'm crazy???
(I'm also a bit paranoid, if you couldn't tell from the above description.)
But after some careful thought and consideration, I came to the conclusion that I was not in need of serious help. And I'm now going to do my best to convince you of the same thing.
I don't like sad things because I'm some kind of a psychopath and I like to see people in pain. I like them because sad things are so very human.
Frivolous conversation isn't something I particularly enjoy. I don't like when people are shallow, I don't like when things are only "ankle-deep". I like to get down into the deepest, darkest parts and pour everything out into the light. I like when people bare their souls and are completely and totally honest with each other and when you can rest your head on someone else's shoulder and spill your guts to them and you know everything's going to be okay because you're human and so are they and this is how things are supposed to be.
When people are sad, when people are broken, they become real. They drop the masks and they are nothing but what they truly are inside.
They're broken and lost and they're taking the first step toward something better.
So really, sad things aren't that sad at all. It's just that low part in every story that always leads to something even better than you or the characters could have ever imagined. When you take a sad story and shave off all of the tears and pain, at its center it's really a story of hope.
And that's why I like them. Because it's just another way to illustrate that there really is good in the world and that there's always a light at the end of the tunnel.
Hope that this ended up making some kind of sense. :P I also started an Etsy this last Friday if you want to check that out here: https://www.etsy.com/shop/MagesticMakery?ref=hdr_shop_menu
I'm hoping to have a Gravity Falls fanfiction up next week, but I've said similar things before only to have them not happen. But I'm going to really try!!
Have a wonderful week, dearest readers!
MR
But after some careful thought and consideration, I came to the conclusion that I was not in need of serious help. And I'm now going to do my best to convince you of the same thing.
I don't like sad things because I'm some kind of a psychopath and I like to see people in pain. I like them because sad things are so very human.
Frivolous conversation isn't something I particularly enjoy. I don't like when people are shallow, I don't like when things are only "ankle-deep". I like to get down into the deepest, darkest parts and pour everything out into the light. I like when people bare their souls and are completely and totally honest with each other and when you can rest your head on someone else's shoulder and spill your guts to them and you know everything's going to be okay because you're human and so are they and this is how things are supposed to be.
When people are sad, when people are broken, they become real. They drop the masks and they are nothing but what they truly are inside.
They're broken and lost and they're taking the first step toward something better.
So really, sad things aren't that sad at all. It's just that low part in every story that always leads to something even better than you or the characters could have ever imagined. When you take a sad story and shave off all of the tears and pain, at its center it's really a story of hope.
And that's why I like them. Because it's just another way to illustrate that there really is good in the world and that there's always a light at the end of the tunnel.
Hope that this ended up making some kind of sense. :P I also started an Etsy this last Friday if you want to check that out here: https://www.etsy.com/shop/MagesticMakery?ref=hdr_shop_menu
I'm hoping to have a Gravity Falls fanfiction up next week, but I've said similar things before only to have them not happen. But I'm going to really try!!
Have a wonderful week, dearest readers!
MR
Tuesday, January 5, 2016
The Year in Review and Looking Ahead.
Guys.
Guys.
I haven't blogged in weeks. Weeks. I am so very, very sorry!!!! Life has been slightly insane over here, though, so I actually have a pretty good excuse, believe it or not! There was the holidays, and my grandpa was visiting, then my great-grandpa just passed away a few days ago and there's a lot of family and three of them are staying at our house and I am desperately trying to clean up my art-barf of a room before they get here, all without trying to pull my hair out and run around screaming at the chaotic unplanned-ness of it all.
So yeah. Pr-etty psycho crazy.
*Takes deep breath*
But aside from all of that! I had a really great Christmas time! Like I said, my grandpa came to visit for the holiday, so that was totally awesome! He's hilarious. And also unnervingly like my father. And my brother.
I got a digital art tablet for Christmas along with a 132 pack of Prismacolors, and I AM HAVING SO MUCH FUN!!! I've had some technical difficulties getting a program to download on my computer for my tablet, but I think I'm starting to work out the kinks. :P
We have had such a lovely winter up here! We've gotten about 3 feet of snow dumped down on us, and it's been awesome!!!! And absolutely gorgeous!!
Our Christmas tree was also very pretty. :) And I just really like this picture of this ornament, so what the heck.
Dang, it is just so beautiful outside right now! These pictures don't even do everything justice....
But this is only stuff from the last few weeks. This post is supposed to be about the whole year in review, hehheh. I promise to be as brief as I can! :P Thus the reason I will be dividing it into a few highlights.
The biggest highlight would probably be me starting and finishing my first draft. That, that was huge for me. But I've done a whole post dedicated to that, so yeah.
And this is followed closely by our trip to the ocean. I've done a whole series of posts dedicated to this, so I won't say much, but man. That was seriously the best week of my entire life so far.
Another highlight would be when I got one of my drawings published in a book!!!! The wonderful Jill Williamson hosted a contest for young readers such as myself, and I was one of the winners. You probably already know this if you follow me on Pinterest, but what you might not know is that I'm going to be doing a picture for her next two books! So I am pretty dang excited about that!!!!!!!
I also got baptized this year, and I started piano lessons back up, and I am now teaching three piano students. I crocheted a lot, some of my projects including a Hiccup and Toothless, Hiro and Baymax and a Mabel sweater. I turned sixteen, (which also means I can now wear makeup, muahhahhahaha!), I survived driver's ED, I also passed driver's ED, I got my first pair of Converse! I spent a lot of money on nerdy things, I bought book 12 of the HTTYD books (even though I still haven't read it, someone help me), I discovered the magical wonder of amazingness that is Gravity Falls, I utterly fell in love with BH6.
Gosh, a lot of things happened!!!!!!! Honestly, 2015 was a great year, filled with ups and downs, but with more ups in my opinion. :) I feel like I'm forgetting something important, but oh well, if I remember it I'll share it.
But yesh. Thus concludes my year in review. And now it is time for me to tell you all about some future plans, hehheh.
The biggest one is that I have started editing my book. My golly-gosh, I read over my first chapter and I could have cried. I HAVE MY WORK CUT OUT FOR ME, PEOPLE!!!! Ugh.
My goal is to have it "ready" to be published by the end of the year. Of course, that depends on a lot of things that I kind of don't have control over, but I just want to try my best to have it there.
I'm also going to start an Etsy shop, this Friday!!! I'll be selling crochet things along with my art. There will be prints, there will be originals, there will be amigurumis, there will be clothes, it will be fun! :D It's called MagesticMakery, by the way. *Inserts shameless self promotion*
And I am also planning on changing up the look of my blog sometime soon. So don't be too shocked if you click over here one day and everything has changed. :P
I'd also like to go to ComicCon, the ocean, and Great Britain, but travelling is much expensive and I is young and haz little moneys. So I'll be putting those dreams on the back burner for a little while.
And that truly concludes my long and winded update!! I hope I didn't bore you all to death, and that you've had a great Christmas as well, that your year was amazing, and that this one is even better!
Have fun remembering to write 2016 instead of 2015!
MR
Guys.
I haven't blogged in weeks. Weeks. I am so very, very sorry!!!! Life has been slightly insane over here, though, so I actually have a pretty good excuse, believe it or not! There was the holidays, and my grandpa was visiting, then my great-grandpa just passed away a few days ago and there's a lot of family and three of them are staying at our house and I am desperately trying to clean up my art-barf of a room before they get here, all without trying to pull my hair out and run around screaming at the chaotic unplanned-ness of it all.
So yeah. Pr-etty psycho crazy.
*Takes deep breath*
But aside from all of that! I had a really great Christmas time! Like I said, my grandpa came to visit for the holiday, so that was totally awesome! He's hilarious. And also unnervingly like my father. And my brother.
I got a digital art tablet for Christmas along with a 132 pack of Prismacolors, and I AM HAVING SO MUCH FUN!!! I've had some technical difficulties getting a program to download on my computer for my tablet, but I think I'm starting to work out the kinks. :P We have had such a lovely winter up here! We've gotten about 3 feet of snow dumped down on us, and it's been awesome!!!! And absolutely gorgeous!!
Our Christmas tree was also very pretty. :) And I just really like this picture of this ornament, so what the heck.
Dang, it is just so beautiful outside right now! These pictures don't even do everything justice....
But this is only stuff from the last few weeks. This post is supposed to be about the whole year in review, hehheh. I promise to be as brief as I can! :P Thus the reason I will be dividing it into a few highlights.
The biggest highlight would probably be me starting and finishing my first draft. That, that was huge for me. But I've done a whole post dedicated to that, so yeah.
And this is followed closely by our trip to the ocean. I've done a whole series of posts dedicated to this, so I won't say much, but man. That was seriously the best week of my entire life so far.
Another highlight would be when I got one of my drawings published in a book!!!! The wonderful Jill Williamson hosted a contest for young readers such as myself, and I was one of the winners. You probably already know this if you follow me on Pinterest, but what you might not know is that I'm going to be doing a picture for her next two books! So I am pretty dang excited about that!!!!!!!
I also got baptized this year, and I started piano lessons back up, and I am now teaching three piano students. I crocheted a lot, some of my projects including a Hiccup and Toothless, Hiro and Baymax and a Mabel sweater. I turned sixteen, (which also means I can now wear makeup, muahhahhahaha!), I survived driver's ED, I also passed driver's ED, I got my first pair of Converse! I spent a lot of money on nerdy things, I bought book 12 of the HTTYD books (even though I still haven't read it, someone help me), I discovered the magical wonder of amazingness that is Gravity Falls, I utterly fell in love with BH6.
Gosh, a lot of things happened!!!!!!! Honestly, 2015 was a great year, filled with ups and downs, but with more ups in my opinion. :) I feel like I'm forgetting something important, but oh well, if I remember it I'll share it.
But yesh. Thus concludes my year in review. And now it is time for me to tell you all about some future plans, hehheh.
The biggest one is that I have started editing my book. My golly-gosh, I read over my first chapter and I could have cried. I HAVE MY WORK CUT OUT FOR ME, PEOPLE!!!! Ugh.
My goal is to have it "ready" to be published by the end of the year. Of course, that depends on a lot of things that I kind of don't have control over, but I just want to try my best to have it there.
I'm also going to start an Etsy shop, this Friday!!! I'll be selling crochet things along with my art. There will be prints, there will be originals, there will be amigurumis, there will be clothes, it will be fun! :D It's called MagesticMakery, by the way. *Inserts shameless self promotion*
And I am also planning on changing up the look of my blog sometime soon. So don't be too shocked if you click over here one day and everything has changed. :P
I'd also like to go to ComicCon, the ocean, and Great Britain, but travelling is much expensive and I is young and haz little moneys. So I'll be putting those dreams on the back burner for a little while.
And that truly concludes my long and winded update!! I hope I didn't bore you all to death, and that you've had a great Christmas as well, that your year was amazing, and that this one is even better!
Have fun remembering to write 2016 instead of 2015!
MR
Wednesday, December 9, 2015
Sisterhood of the World Bloggers Award
Hey there, readers!
Look who's back and posting early. :D Well, I've been tagged with another blog award, which is so exciting, ohmygosh!! The wonderful Emmarayn Redding tagged me in this one, and you can check out her
blog here.
I think it's so much fun to answer questions and tag people and all of that jazz. So, that's what I'm going to be doing today!
Let's get started, shall we?
Look who's back and posting early. :D Well, I've been tagged with another blog award, which is so exciting, ohmygosh!! The wonderful Emmarayn Redding tagged me in this one, and you can check out her
blog here.
I think it's so much fun to answer questions and tag people and all of that jazz. So, that's what I'm going to be doing today!
Let's get started, shall we?
1. If you were tossed into a fictional world, which genre would you want it to be? (In other words, which would you have the best chance at surviving?)
Well, I would want to be tossed into a fantasy genre, but I can almost guarantee that I would die very, very quickly.
Yeah.
So I'd probably say something a little calmer survival wise. Like, drama, maybe? I don't know, I can just see myself being that one character that dies no matter what genre I'm thrown in...
Heck, let's just go with fantasy! Maybe I'll be lucky and I'll have some kind of hidden talent with the sword. :)
2. If you could take three people with you to that world, who would you take?
This isn't so hard. :P I would take my friend Mikaylea, 'cause I think she would kill me if I didn't take her with me, and also because I can see her being pretty handy. I'd also take my dad. With him, my chances of survival would escalate drastically. And I'd probably also take my friend Emily as well, because she would also be upset with me if I didn't take her.
3. If a stranger broke into your house, but didn't see you immediately, what would you do? (Assuming you didn't have a phone within arm's reach.)
Aha!!! All those hours I've spent thinking about this haven't been a total waste!!!
I'd slink as quietly as I could toward a phone or a weapon, whichever was closer, but in the end I would be sure to get one of each. Depending on if they saw me or not, I would either hide or fight the little low-life out of my house. :P Of course, if said person wasn't a low-life, like if they were just trying to feed their family or something, I'd help the poor guy out. After explaining that just asking for help is always better than breaking into someone's house.
But I've just gone down a long and winding rabbit trail on this question. Oops. :P
4. What would be the ideal way to meet your future husband, in your opinion?
Oh yay, I've thought about this one before too! :P
There are multiple options.
Church is always a good one. But I also like the idea of meeting him in a library as we're both reading books we each love, or asking him to get a book of the shelf for me that's too high for me to reach, or something just utterly ridiculous and cute. :)
Also, meeting him in a little café would be nice. Maybe we're both writing or reading or looking at nerdy things on our favorite social media sites. Yeah, you get the picture.
5. If there's one character from a book/movie you would never want to find sitting in your living room, who would it be? (Leaving out the ones that are too big or abstract to sit in your living room- i.e. Sauron...)
There are many. So very many.
I'm going to give you a few because I can't decide on one. :P I would never, ever want to find Excellinor from the HTTYD books. I mean, like, ever. Just think of coming into your house when all of the lights are still off and you can just hear her breathing and her nails clacking against the table and your heart starts racing 'cause you know it's her.
Yeah! Thank you Cressida Cowell for scarring me for life.
I would also never want to find people like Moriarty in my living room *Shudders*. Ugh, no. Also not the Beast from Over the Garden Wall, because DANG he is scary!!!! And I am quickly learning that I would definitely not like to find Bill Cipher in my living room either. *Shudders again and wraps blanket around shoulders*
Now that I've scared myself....
There are many. So very many.
I'm going to give you a few because I can't decide on one. :P I would never, ever want to find Excellinor from the HTTYD books. I mean, like, ever. Just think of coming into your house when all of the lights are still off and you can just hear her breathing and her nails clacking against the table and your heart starts racing 'cause you know it's her.
Yeah! Thank you Cressida Cowell for scarring me for life.
I would also never want to find people like Moriarty in my living room *Shudders*. Ugh, no. Also not the Beast from Over the Garden Wall, because DANG he is scary!!!! And I am quickly learning that I would definitely not like to find Bill Cipher in my living room either. *Shudders again and wraps blanket around shoulders*
Now that I've scared myself....
6. If there is one character from a book/movie you would want to find sitting in your living room, who would it be?
SO MANY HARD QUESTIONS!!! WHY MUST I DECIDE ON JUST ONE?!?!?
There are so many I could choose!!!!!!! Gaaaahhhhhh, I hate picking favorites like this. I love all of my sweet wittle favorite characters!
Okay, okay. I would love to see a lot of characters. Like Sam Wise, or Bilbo, or Hiro, or Dipper or Mabel, and many, many more. But I'm going to have to settle on Hiccup Horrendous Haddock the third from the HTTYD books. Again, I don't like picking favorites fictional characters, but if I had to choose one!
It would be him.
*Sniffs* So there.
7. If you could live one day of your life in the style of a television show, what genre would you pick? (Sitcom, comedy, romance, crime drama, etc)
Hmmm.... I'm not sure. Maybe drama? Comedy? Dramatic comedy? Is there such a thing as that???
No. Nonononono. I know what I'd choose. I'd just choose a blessed cartoon series, because those sure do have both comedy and plenty of bloomin' drama and heartbreak in them!!! Waaggh!!!
8. What character role would you take in the "episode?"
Are you wanting a realistic answer or what I'd like to envision myself as being? :P 'Cause I'd want to be the awkwardly adorable main character that everyone loves but who has a hard time loving themselves, but I'd probably be the equally awkward sidekick/best friend/sibling/whatever-you-know-that-one-character-I'm-talking-about.
9. If someone were to compose a soundtrack for your life, who would you want it to be?
Yes. Oh, yeeesssss.
I would choose Hans-blessed-Zimmer. I don't even need to think about it. He's utterly amazing.
But if for some reason he couldn't do it, I would fall back on John Powell, because my love for the HTTYD soundtracks is limitless and I would love that kind of magic playing in the background of my life.
10. Can you give us some examples of their work?
You bet I can. Although, I am slightly too lazy to actually include the videos at this time, so I'm just going to give you a list that you can look up.
Go listen to all of Hans Zimmer's stuff. Specifically the Interstellar soundtrack, the Inception soundtrack, the Batman soundtracks... Just go listen to them.
And for John Powell, as I stated earlier, just go listen to the HTTYD soundtracks. They are some of my all time favorites, and just YES.
Wahoo!!! I did it! :D I have a lot of fun with these, so thank you so much again, Emmarayn!!
Now it's my turn to tag people and come up with questions. I must confess, I don't yet really follow a lot of bloggers, so in the last tag I did I pretty much tagged all of the people I followed. So I'm only tagging two people, pleasedon'tjudgeme.
Darrion http://sincerelydarrion.blogspot.com/
Bronze the Sling http://squigglyrambler.blogspot.com/
They both have truly great blogs, so go check them out!
And now it's time for my questions. :D I'm going to keep them all Christmas themed since it is Christmastime after all!!!
1.What's your favorite part of the season?
2. Do you have your decorations/tree up yet?
3. What is your favorite Christmas decoration?
4. Your favorite Christmas tradition?
5. Your favorite Christmas memory?
6. How about your favorite Christmas song?
7. If you could get anything you wanted for Christmas, and I mean literally anything, what would it be?
8. If you could give one thing, anything, what would it be?
9. Do you prefer online shopping or, er, the other kind where you actually leave your house?
10. What do you do on Christmas eve?
There we go! I hope you all enjoy this post and that you all like the questions! Have a wonderful Christmas week, my dear readers!
MR
Sunday, December 6, 2015
S'more Christmas Music!!!!
Hello again dearest readers!!!
How's your week been? Mine's been quite good, thankfully. I have a recital coming up a week from today so I'm extremely nervous to the point of tears. But yeah, I'm cool.
So. I was going to do a blog tag today, because I have two that I need to catch up on. I started writing it like, Wednesday, and I had a few of the questions answered and things like that. And I finished it up tonight. But I've had the tab minimized all week, and went I went to publish it it wouldn't let me, so I thought I'd save it and try again from a new tab.
But apparently it didn't save.
I had only three of the answered questions saved, and I... I just couldn't. So I'm giving you all some Christmas music instead!
Actually, I've been compiling a list for this very purpose. And I've got some pretty good ones, if I do say so myself. Let me begin by saying that these aren't "traditional" Christmas songs. I covered most of my favorites in that genre last year. So I've got a few songs that are written my CCM artists that are just some of the greatest not-traditional Christmas songs I've ever heard....
Let's begin.
1. "I Believe" by Natalie Grant
How's your week been? Mine's been quite good, thankfully. I have a recital coming up a week from today so I'm extremely nervous to the point of tears. But yeah, I'm cool.
So. I was going to do a blog tag today, because I have two that I need to catch up on. I started writing it like, Wednesday, and I had a few of the questions answered and things like that. And I finished it up tonight. But I've had the tab minimized all week, and went I went to publish it it wouldn't let me, so I thought I'd save it and try again from a new tab.
But apparently it didn't save.
I had only three of the answered questions saved, and I... I just couldn't. So I'm giving you all some Christmas music instead!
Actually, I've been compiling a list for this very purpose. And I've got some pretty good ones, if I do say so myself. Let me begin by saying that these aren't "traditional" Christmas songs. I covered most of my favorites in that genre last year. So I've got a few songs that are written my CCM artists that are just some of the greatest not-traditional Christmas songs I've ever heard....
Let's begin.
1. "I Believe" by Natalie Grant
2. "The Night Before Christmas" by Brandon Heath
3. "Joseph's Lullaby" by Mercy Me
4. "How Many Kings" by Downhere
5. "One Child" by Natalie Grant
(I don't really get how the pictures in this video really go with the song, but I couldn't find a good video, and the song is amazing, so whatever. :P)
I have, like, a lot more I could do, but then there would be at least ten songs and that's just too much for you guys. So, I'm going to stop here!
Hope you all enjoyed it, and that you have a very merry, wonderfilled, Christmas-y week!!!
MR
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